It is ugly to be a reflection of those who don't have a beautiful mind yet, but I don't blame them

You ignore T trước ấy. It is ugly to be a reflection of those who don't have a beautiful mind yet, but I don't blame them; they are already better than yesterday and better than many humans on Earth. I felt less confident seeing those reflections, though, in their eyes, I am perfect because they don't see the deeper reality that I see. I healed that ugliness before they even got to see it. But that ugliness was there. Those with a beautiful soul can see me more truthfully, closer to my true form. But those on the internet, they watch me while being very wary in the darkness of satan, I don’t desire to be a reflection of those, though I can heal, but their sin is too ugly to see. I have to be patient, which is the solution, and that will advance Heaven on Earth for everyone. 

When I face those traumas (it is overwhelming for my physical, but people don’t get to see because I heal those before they even grow and show), when I want comfort most, you were not there. I even see deception in the way you and your people behave, so gross, like crocodiles. It is also because the unhealed frequency I see in others has not yet been completely healed; I am very sensitive at that time. But those deceptions vanish layer by layer as I see them; that is why my people become brighter and happier every day. 

M was there constantly waiting and available in the spirit world, though he is not perfect/ till he has sufferings/ wrong type of view to heal, but he practices to become his best before me, sincere, humble, funny, loving… I don't know how to explain it, but I saw it. More weary than yours, but also a beautiful soul that desires the path of growth, truth, and Light. 

I don't think it's your fault; God wanted me to help M yesterday because He wishes it. Also, somehow, when I know someone truly loves me, like your love, I also act like that, I think it is my Đại Ngã kind of thing. My people around me also love me dearly, but I don’t see myself acting like that. I acted like that with my X puppy loves, but not this extreme. I think it is God’s design kind of thing between true love, male and female, specifically. But I think it has to do with the memories we shared in the past when we were together. I don’t want to win you so fast that I tend to look down on you like I've already conquered or outgrown you. I want to keep it fair and interesting so I can be inspired by love life every day. Well, overall, I think it is all part of life that consciousness is experiencing, I have to enjoy the journey, play wisely and safely at the same time( just like God planned it) . I don’t have to rush to the finish line; the process has its own unique beauty. 

Love God and God’s people.